Dave's Death 2

Dave never really connected with people very well. He was very shy and set in his ways you might say. I don't know if anyone really has closure as I do not in the way that I still don't know how he died. His father said he had a heart attack and still I would make the assumption that it was drug induced. No one really wanted to tell me the truth I guess. I don't know if anyone reads my blogger blog anymore. The class is over, but I want to continue with doing things. I want to connect with people even if Dave never could. He died with three names in his cellular phone address book. "Typical Dave," his brother said in reference to this. I don't think Dave knew that he was a good person. He was so caught up with the fact that humanity is so bad, he never would talk about the good things in life. After the wake, I feel almost more painful, because now it is definite that I won't see him again. I had wanted to see him again, but we never got around to seeing each other. I was mean to him, admonishing him for his drinking and negativity. Though, we were never too different. I have difficulty connecting with people and yet now I feel like I am talking about things which brings the topic to "all about me." I just wish Dave was still alive...

Dave's Death

If there were one person I would expect to die, it would be Dave, and yet I cannot tell Dave and admonish him now that he is dead. I will see him tomorrow perhaps at the wake. Perhaps connection with his other friends will dull the sadness. I guess I will get back into blogging, because I have to continue on with life in a way that Dave cannot take part anymore. Dave used to write a new message each day on Facebook about things that were disgusting and now I will do something similar; Not the disgusting part. Love, Cory